The engine room
Both hell and heart
To those who know it, all there is
everything else is shell
1700: So we eventually got another taxi into Limon. A rough place. When we first arrived many of the general shops were open and it seemed ok. Later, when they had closed, it started to be... lively.
Costa Rica operates two currencies: its own, the Colon (after Christobal Colon, Christopher Colombus to us) and the US dollar. This is immensely inconvenient. It means that unless you carry both there are some things you can buy and some you can't. After two abortive attempts to get colones out of ATMs I gave up for the evening and had to stick to the drinking/ taxi dollar economy.
But people were very friendly and helpful. They just seem to be like that, with a lot of wry humour and philosophy. ¡Hola Ticos!
Eventually we found a hotel for Thomas who got off here on his way overland to Honduras. Then I accompanied the others in their expedition in search of rum.
The first bar we went in was rough, with immensely loud Ragga playing, and no windows, just bars in the apertures. I don't much like Ragga, which to me sounds formulaic and, unlike almost any other reggae except perhaps dub, dated. But then the music changed to indigenous stuff and that was great. Everything in the bar started to happen to the beat and no one sat still: the music must be shared in. I started to really enjoy myself.
Outside, Tom and Peter committed the mistakes of a) standing still and b) obviously not knowing what to do next. This place was on the darker fringes of downtown and a crowd of people gathered from the shadows of nowhere to offer suggestions, demanding a dollar for each one. Eventually two of the younger crew members from the Segovia Carrier arrived and drove most of the crowd away. One new acquaintance recommended a bar nearby and we set off.
The Russian lads were very much against this second bar. "Bad place," they said. The bar was completely empty. Huge video screens showed a compilation of Madonna videos. There were neon lights everywhere and a general 'designer' look. The barman had his hair tied back into an oiled ponytail, and there was no one else in the place at all.
The owner emerged from somewhere. Meanwhile, the younger Russian had engaged me in conversation and I was trying to follow this while also trying hard to work out what was going on. When drinks eventually came, following intense negotiations between Tom and the owner, they were large glass jugs, half-and-half lager and ice. The lore of travel is that ice is no more healthy than the water it is made from so if you wouldn’t drink the water, don't touch the ice! And anyhow, who wants to pay for watered-down lager? I went.
Outside things were now a little ragged. Someone gave me a high five, then grabbed my hand and tried to pull me into the shadows. I pulled away and didn't stop. I toured a couple of well-stocked supermarkets but I couldn't buy anything because it was all priced in colones. In the market square a full family, mother, father and three kids, were preparing for a night on the pavement before an illuminated shop front, presumably hoping that the second-hand light would give them confidence or security. They seemed decent people. The mother was adjusting her children's pyjamas before they lay down beneath their blankets as though still in the bedroom they must once have shared.
I met up with the taxi outside the post office. The fare had mysteriously doubled, but I arranged for him to return at 9 tomorrow morning so I can go to town, do my shopping with colones and film some daytime life. I won't see Tom again, but I wonder what time Peter will manage to get back.
In the bar with loud music
People move in rhythm
A young girl jumps up and down
Parades her smooth midriff
Others
Have other things
The women behind the bar
Not young like her
Dance their eyes
Are so much alive
So aware of their own promise
The wiser men want them
They would fizz and curse
But would never be passive
Would never leave you in the male horror story
Of having to decide
They would do and have
You would be so grateful
Look at them move
Look at them look at you
Considering you
Re-imagining you
They are why men drink in bars
We are why women don't.
1530: Arrived at Moin, Costa Rica. It is a tiny port with no cranes of its own, unlike the main port in nearby Limon which was completely empty as we passed it. There is some weird politics at work here. This was confirmed with the arrival of what I assumed to be the shipping agents.
Meanwhile, on the quayside gathered the forces of bureaucratic entry to another country. This was an enormous posse compared to everywhere except Turbo. They were there in their green and in their red and in their dark blue costumes - this last was 'K9 Services', handlers with sniffer dogs. They all came aboard while we waited for another late taxi. Meanwhile our departure time had changed from the previously announced 0400 on the 23rd to 1200 on the 22nd - tomorrow! Not happy about this.
A grey sea and grey skies in the western Caribbean
no ships, no land, no life.
Yesterday
the gunmen were shepherded from the ship
more of them than I thought
by a man in a striped shirt who didn't like me filming
into a covered boat
to sit in rows with their shotguns
small Indian men
in whose army?
whose employ?
whose interests?
the mandatory divers -
who mandated them?
from whom?
what sanctions this and how?
The opacity of money and guns
Like guns, when money comes
It drives out questions
Minds become concentrated in a single thought
What may be given?
What may be taken away?
Southern world town:
streets like threads that have been pulled
the same but dreams unravelled
shops more full and more empty
a grid of streets fading to fadeout
where the lights thin and you don't go
characters populate the parts of this scenario
each a factor waiting to operate
in their patch of place
recurring if you pass again
be very sure here after dark
be a factor of your own
have your character ready to hand
to bring into operation
when voices speak from the shadows
and figures cross streets
don't wait for advice
don't stand in indecision
drift and tend
weave and wend
find, but do not reveal your newness
and don't be frightened
be sympathetic
understand
why things are like this here
in whose interests
look at that whole family on the pavement by the market
preparing for a night again amongst this chaos that unnerves you
regular, decent people
look while they dress their children
ready for repose
what is there between you and that?
think about how fragile is the distinction
respect them for their dignity
carry your anger for them
don't visit it on them
there is no way for you to express decency
that is currently your part of the tragedy
and this is just another town
under the hot stars
yours for a few hours
when you are gone
they will still be here.
0700: Grey and rainy. We are ploughing north and west. We have left behind our furthest point south and we have turned our stern to the earth's arse of Turbo.
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