SO MUCH

So much steel in these things.

Somewhere there must be a giant hole where all this iron was in the earth.

So much effort.

So much weld

So much work.

From different directions, the ship and the white sea bird continued their journeys from horizon to horizon, a passage that would take a lifetime.

IT'S NOT SIMPLE

It's not simple

nothing is simple

nothing that you've ever known is simple

nothing is

but we can choose the words we use

simple words fuse

to say more.

2225: The last night, and that doesn't make it any better. Let me off! I feel knackered and I hope I can sleep a few hours of it away. I keep having accidents, a sure sign of stress for me. And depressed too. The set! And comma abuse. Basta!

1630:

Posn.: N47 54 W09 17.

Speed: 18.5Kn

Course: 063

ETA: 1824 2/11/04.

We are still about 8 hours from the waypoint on the Ushant / Scillies line. I estimate we'll get there about midnight tonight.

YOU HAD TO BE THERE....

It is futile to try to convey experience

How much would you need to capture

Sights and sounds

Then feelings, like the pulse of the engine

Smells

The feeling of the air on skin

The awareness of it all around you

Yourself in this world

And not only the world to hand

But those you approach and leave behind

The lack of knowledge of what comes next

What might happen - the assessment and listing of fears,

Hopes & possibilities

But perhaps above all what we bring to it

What has made us what we are

To perceive what we do

To choose what we do

To be where we are

And where we can go from here.

ON THE WIND 1

Writing on the deck is no longer to be taken for granted

The wind is a smart weapon

That finds a way precisely to stop what you want to do.

And it brings the cold.

 

The first sense and scents of a continent

The red of fishing floats hides and seeks amongst the waves

Sea birds, lazy flap, within range

Of what they need to call home.

FROM THE HEART

all the energies in the ship

to roll, pitch, slam, rise & fall

to rattle, tinkle, knock and crack

to throb and vibrate at whatever frequency

to shake your fillings in your mouth

and tremble cheeks when you sleep

to roll your pencil off the table

to make everlasting noise

and even to move the ship along

from the great engine.

1810: Suddenly it's Piccadilly Circus (or Trafalgar Roundabout) out there! A big ship just crossed our bow east to west and to starboard there are perhaps ten lights, possibly a fishing fleet.

0945: I'd been up on the top filming and I was returning to the cabin when, from the starboard wing deck, I saw a whale spouting! It was some distance away on the starboard beam and I couldn't get a shot of it. It wasn't particularly impressive at such a range - all you could see was the fountain.

Coming down the steps from the wing deck to the quarterdeck, I slipped and went down. I hurt my left arm a bit but it is nothing. But the video camera is damaged.

0805: Better weather this morning. A cloudy dawn and now a clearing sky, and sunny. There seems to be less wind and the sea has abated, so perhaps we can pick up speed again.

I have loads of teabags left, having done all my planning based on arrival on November 4th. But it pays to remember the old adage: never count your teabags before....

PARKA

A kinder dawn

with the steel of the north in it,

but the look of the south.

Tomorrow>

A MATTER OF HOURS

Purple clouds to the north and east

The Western Approaches, the great mouth of Europe

It is too cold now to write outside

As whatever polices the fitness of seasons

imposes late Autumn in a matter of hours.

THIS THEN THIS THEN THIS

The pointlessness of it

How many people's lives are like this?

Satisfies to know you'll be alive at the end of the day

There will be work for you tomorrow

This then this then this

 

My recipe for coping with despair

Theirs for a lifetime

With no spare for thought

Change

Hope

Or revolution

A brief dose of starvation

Makes this enough

The argument that although this life is shit

There is worse elsewhere

And meanwhile banana kings,

Queens , royalty & aristocracy

Live a life of a twelve month year

24 hours a day

Not of 6-month ghost times

One night ashore

Then a month of trying to rebuild a life

Worthy of a name in your absence

These people were better off our enemy

So worthy of respect

Now they have been relabelled cheap labour

And capitalism ponces off a state’s investment in their people

Which showed no profit.

Another non-renewable resource

To use up then move on

There will always be some by-product of the beliefs of others

For those who have no belief

Except in the flow of money

You should have asked for so much more

You could have demanded so much more

Perhaps you still can....

tH

MONDAY 1st NOVEMBER: ABOVE THE PORCUPINE ABYSSAL PLAIN, NORTH ATLANTIC OCEAN

Tomorrow>